Archive for April, 2009

Confession

I have to get this out into the open. There is someone else. I know, I know, I am married. But I have to share this. I am in love. In love with someone else. Yes, I still love my wife. But this other person challenges me. This other person pushes me. I feel incredibly loved by this person. I don’t know how this happened. It all started kind of matter of factly. One thing lead to another. Before I knew it, I felt like I was dating again. I would feel nervous at first but then I became comforted. I am able to be myself. It’s strange because I don’t feel guilty in any manner. It wasn’t hard to hide, actually it was quite easy.  I remember thinking, “how can I be loved this much?” It’s not the first time I have been involved with another. This time is different though. There is chemistry and excitement. This other person isn’t flawless. The grass on the other side didn’t look greener, so to speak. This person was there waiting. This person was willing to give. This person expected nothing in return. The coolest part about this whole entanglement of relationships is that my wife is understanding about the whole situation. Oddly enough, this was meant to be. I never realized I could love anything or anybody as much as I love my wife but I do. This person I am speaking is Gracepoint Community Church. Shame on you for thinking I was a dog. I love my church. I love how much this church loves anyone else as well. It’s hard for me not to describe Gracepoint as “my” church. I am so proud of the church as a whole. It’s not perfect but it doesn’t try to be. Gracepoint is a beautiful mess of real people.

I think I might have OCD

When I peel a banana I insist on tearing down the creases.

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When I remove a switch plate to paint, I am meticulous about not scratching the screw heads paint. Of course after a few times of removing the plate, this is impossible. I just changed every socket and light plate within the upstairs of our home.

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I check every expiration date on anything I think about putting in my mouth. If it expires today, trash. If it expires tomorrow I will smell it and have a little taste test. I do not eat two day later leftovers!

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If I am reading and come across a word that I do not know it’s definition, I must look it up.

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I will not use a 0.5mm mechanical pencil. It must be 0.7mm.

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When loading the dishwasher all utensils must be facing up.

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I adjust the bass, treble, and fade differently on each song I listen to create the best sound quality.

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Peter or Paul

I have been digging through the events that lead up to Jesus’ death. I always try to find some detail that I have never noticed before. Actually, I found 2 things that made me go hmm. I won’t talk about them though. I don’t feel like hashing through Jewish customs on this platform.

Something that I realized, while doing this, is I like Peter. Reading about Peter reminds me of myself. More so his failures than his successes. I love how Peter is revealed as a real dude. I am not sure why Jesus’ other company is not. Maybe Peter was just more vulnerable and didn’t punch people in the mouth when his purposes were questioned.

I am not a big fan of Paul. Paul was a stud. Paul changed the world. But I don’t think we would have got along. I know people thought he was an ass at times. Believe me I should be more like Paul but I just don’t think we would have jived.

Peter loved Christ. Peter loved his culture. Christ loved Peter. Jesus gave Peter a cool nickname as well. The Rock.

the-rock1Some say that Peter was the rock that the church should be founded upon. Catholic priests consider themselves representatives of Peter’s position. Another thing I love about Peter is that he dared to walk on water. Ya, he sunk but at least he had the nuts to step off. He trusted Christ but then began to look else where. Who hasn’t?

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Back to the Easter scene. Peter denied Christ. The rooster crowed. Peter was questioned about his companionship with Christ. The rooster crowed. He had been seen with Christ. Peter was picked out of a crowd. He must have been influential in Christ’s ministry within the region. There is a party going in the midst of Jesus’ trial, I can only imagine chaos. Yet Peter stands out. He is accused of being with the Nazarene. His actions proceed him. And we all know he denies his relationship with Christ.

peeps1It’s easy to be the armchair quarterback and say you wouldn’t have denied Christ. We deny Christ everyday. This day coming up, that is filled with peeps and little girls in flowery dresses, should be the ultimate reminder of how Christ didn’t deny us. Christ didn’t deny Peter even though He called Peter out on denying Him.

Peter went on to runamuck in Christ’s name. I think we should realize that our denial of Christ is magnified during this season. When you walk out of church Sunday, will you have realized that you deny Christ or will you just be saddened by the torture inflicted upon Jesus? Regardless, I plan on coming out with guns blazing. I plan on being a better follower. I plan on being a better husband. I plan on being a better father.

We must remember that Jesus chose to face the cross. When his boys were sleeping while they were to be on the look out He knew he would be betrayed. He didn’t call on a legion of angels. He followed through with the Father’s will but it wasn’t easy for Him. He asked the Father to give him the strength to complete this task.

He wanted to die for you. You chose Him at your convenience but do you follow Him? I guess the best person to ask that question to is Christ himself. Sunday, this is what I intend to do. I plan on asking my Savior, “Do I follow you in a manner that benefits your cause?”

Obama

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Father of Mine

I forgot how much I loved this song. Musically it’s the most boring song but lyrically it screams me.

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